Another anniversary

It’s our 20^th wedding anniversary yesterday and thank Allah we have made it this far. Time really flies, I just can’t believe that it has been 20 years already.

This is what we got for our wedding anniversary this year – a piece of land around 1.8 acres at my hometown. Plans are on the way to cultivate this land, planting rubber trees as well as fruit trees, including soursop of course. No hurry in building a house yet as we have around ten years to go before retirement. And of course, this will be the place that we will spend our retirement years at.

Cultivating this land will certainly keep me busy. I ever blog about doing other thing so as not to worry much about this C. So, this is it. This will certainly take my mind out of it. Besides, it is also a therapy for me. Surrounded by trees, the air is still fresh, a natural oxygen therapy for me.

In the meantime, I’m feeling great, leading my day-to-day life at ease. I now have constant supply of cendawan susu harimau courtesy of a research company who is researching on the cendawan. On top of it, I am taking the apricot seeds, the real bitter ones this time. I also drink my serai tea, and habatussauda oil as well as extra virgin olive oil everyday. I’ve been trying very hard to reduce on sugar and totally take out dairy products from my diet. So far so good...

Secret of self-healing by Dr Mao

I'm done with Prof Jane's book and am trying very hard to implement what I've learned from it. Surprisingly, lots of products contain milk protein; the coco crunch cereal that I bought for my kids also contain milk protein and even the powdered form coconut milk for my curry also have milk protein. Why is that so? Are they cheap that they can simply add as part of it's ingredients? And how come the kids' milk are so expensive then? Something to ponder, isn't it?

Leaving out the dairy products seems quite ok so far. I do miss the ice cream though but no worries, I can have ice lolly without milk in case I crave for one. She also suggested tofu, tempeh as substitute of proteins and I have started doing it too. While eating out, I choose tofu, tempeh and green veges plus ulam2 together with my rice. Guess what, it's cheap too :-) Most of the time, I pack my lunch from home as I have to cook for my family early in the morning anyway. And since we have a new stock of fish last week, I bet the daily menu would be fish and fish and fish with variety of ways to cook them, of course.

I'm now reading the secrets of self-healing by Dr Mao. It doesn't target specifically on curing the C but it has good tips for self-healing and for sure it will do me good...

Your life in your hands - Prof Jane Plant

During my last visit, I found this book at the carboot sales - a very good bargain, I thought I'd add it to my collection. It's written by a scientist who contracted BC in 1987, had several recurrences and finally defeated her BC, using her training and knowledge as a natural scientist to understand it and to overcome it.

262 pages, hard cover, a very personalized writing, once I start reading it, I cannot stop :-) A very inspiring writing, which has given me answers to why I contracted this BC. I remember I had an email which says dairy products cause cancer. In this book, I found out ‘why’ and ‘how’ scientifically.

I’m trying my best to follow her steps- remove dairy products totally. The best – be a vegan but I don’t think I’d go to that extend. Vegan means taking produce from plants only. I’m not ready to sacrifice the fish and chicken. My husband will be going for a fishing trip next week and I can’t resist the freshness of it, the smell of fresh curry fish, steam fish etc. And once in a while, I also go for the ayam kampung near my office.

So far I have no complaint over my health. Although the lump is still there, I still lead a good quality life, with no pains here and there. I pity some of my friends who have contracted arthritis and so on, suffer pains at their joints, backbones etc, and as the results, limiting their movements and so on. I’m still blessed with good health, Alhamdulillah…

The next book that I will read – Secrets of Self-Healing by Dr Mao. An excerpt from the cover,

"we all have a built-in healing ability, so why not try to activate it with natural means before we resort to drugs and invasive procedures?”

Hmmm, this is a very strong reason why I should not go for surgery…

Life must go on

Previous entries were about friends' passing and infact two more losses along the way since my previous post - my tafsir ustaz passed away because of liver cancer and quite recently arwah Afzal of hogdkin's lymphoma. Al-Fatihah to both.

Those who are gone, are surely gone, we will follow suit, only Allah knows when. For those alive, life must go on...

I'm doing perfectly fine, a bit busy with my PhD work, hoping to finish off soon.

While being busy, I never fail to take a break. We drove down to JB during the third weekend for our friend's wedding. Met some friends, most of them plummer than before :-) Too much of good Malaysian food eh!

Had few chances of fishing too, caught a few too.

Al-Fatihah to my primary school friend

Another friend passed away last weekend of BC. She was my ex-primary school friend and I haven't seen her since I left primary school. I got the news from my ex-classmate, had I known earlier, I would have gone and visit as I was at my hometown during the weekend. My friend has no idea of when arwah was diagnosed with BC. All the she knew, arwah has no kids of her own and had three adopted children.

Thinking of arwah, I'm thankful of what I have - I have the facilities as well as the knowledge as to how to make myself better - my ceragem, my internet and the things that I could afford to buy or to consume.

I have started taking the apricot seed that my sister bought from MAHA last week. It doesn't taste that bad although it's a bit bitter, I can just snack the seeds around 5 at a go, several times a day. So far so good, no throbbing feeling. On top of it, last week I brought the ragi for tapai, and so happen my mum's ubi kayu or carsava is ready for harvest, and I now have plenty of tapai ubi to enjoy...

Will be going back to my hometown again this weekend, hunting for jelawat. My husband has learned a technique to catch the fish last weekend and eager to try it this weekend. In the meantime, I should go and finish off my work, my supervisor is visiting this Wednesday...

Al-Fatihah to my friend's sis

My friend sent me a text this morning to inform about her sister who passed away last Friday of BC stage 4. I blogged about her last April, apparently she did not last long even though she had several series of chemo, as the cancer has spread to her lung. Few days prior to her death, she was on oxygen support.

One of her daughters is now suspected of having an active cancer cells as there is a lump in her breast. Wow, this is kind of scary! Maybe I should review my current condition. As for my latest alternative treatment, so far it has not shown any drastic improvement yet. But the scanning method has found other problems on other organs which I presume if it is not treated would be the next target for my cancer cells. Those are the thyroid, upper back, large intestine and my gallbladder which has shrunked. I'm not surprised as way back in my early years, I often had pain at the abdomen - wind, gastrics and of related. Hopefully by six months all of these will be cleared through this alternative treatment. As for my Qur'an recital, it's at Juz 28 now, quite a speed as my best record was when I was performing my Haj.

Talking about Haj, another friend of mine has just returned from performing her Haj and she brought back for me Morhabshi (Myrrh) - never heard of if but as I googled, I found that there is a therapeutic value of it too. Known as kemenyan bunian to the malays, more info copied here from wiki:

“Myrrh is the dried oleo gum resin of a number of Commiphora species of trees. Like frankincense, it is produced by the tree as a reaction to a purposeful wound through the bark and into the sapwood. The trees are bled in this way on a regular basis. The principal species is Commiphora myrrha, which is native to Yemen, Somalia, and the eastern parts of Ethiopia.”

How do I take it? I can either swallow a tiny bit (the size of pepper seed) or mix a raisin size of Morhabshi into hot water and drink when it's cooled. Since it’s available already, I should give it a try, who knows it would be good for me as I strongly believe that everyone has a unique chemical reaction in his or her body; what works on me may not work on you and vice versa.

Somebody left a comment on my blog, pointing to videos of treating cancer with vitamin C. I am tempted to try too. The vitamin C is infused directly into the vein for the body to generate hydrogen peroxide which is believed to kill that cancer cells. As I googled, over here, vit C treatment is often used for better skin complexion and for having glowy appearance. Maybe I should try this too. I can get two effects at one time – kill the cancer cells and have a glowy complexion as well :-)

I have yet to try the apricot kernel, the source of B17 which can also cure cancer. Yesterday I accidentally watch the repeat of Halal Bio on Astro Oasis about the B17. Well, could this be a sign for me to take the B17? I’ve been wanting to go to MAHA to get a good deal of the apricot kernel, so far has not materialized. Actually we tried to visit MAHA last Sunday but the crowd was unbelievable and we ended up in Putrajaya. I have one more chance to go tomorrow but then again, my supervisor is coming for a visit next week and I have lots to prepare for the meeting…

Alhamdulillah, another birthday…

A bit uneasy about the number? 44 or “Si Si” in chinese language means mati or dead. Too early an age to die eh? Not too soon I hope. Don’t know how true or sahih it is, but as long as we can recite the At-Taubah ayat 128-129, it’s not time for malaikat maut to get us yet. Got this from one of the comments on friend’s FB.

I’m on an alternative spiritual (prayer) treatment at this moment – on top of the zikir, it will be more effective if I could recite the whole Qur’an within 10 days. The race is on, and for this whole week, I’m working from home so that I can complete my mission. Long way to go, as I have just reached Juz 8…

Kids are not schooling today as they are off for Deepavali. The little ones are busy drawing cards for me, the boy is out looking for a gift for me and the big sister is busy in the kitchen baking cake. What a nice feeling, having someone to bake a cake for me during my birthday.

So far no news yet about the seabuckthorn that I enquired. Maybe the softgel is not suitable for muslim’s consumption anyway. Well, there are certainly other alternatives. I read in a self-healing book recently, that the bombay onion (the yellow onion) can cure cancer too. Since my PET/CT scan has detected some kind of activity at the thyroid gland, I read the book again to see the cure for it and so happen the cure is the same as for cancer which is to drink a (Turkish tea) glass (or equivalent to an eggcup full) of the yellow onion juice in the morning and evening for forty days. I have bought the Bombay onion but have no guts to try it out yet. I don’t know whether I could stand the after taste of it :-)

I’m also interested to try the boiled mixture drink of dukung anak, susu kambing, satung and cendawan susu rimau that Dr H wrote in her blog recently. I can’t find those plants to boil yet except for the cendawan susu rimau. I was googling on the satung and came across herbs by khasiat bumi prepared by the orang asli of which among the ingredient are cendawan susu rimau and satung. Since it’s now a rainy season, the product is out of stock. Looking forward to it and hope that it will be available soon. They also produce the herbs for slimming which I would love to try too. Being overweight is the culprit, inviting variety of sickness, so, stay slim my friends…